and all i see is these people that i used to know keep winning good for them though they are just the greatest people that i’ve ever known and im thankful that our paths crossed at one junction long ago ah my words sound so cliche but i mean this is how its supposed to be and this is the only option there is for me right? that is to say the nicest thing possible duh
JUST MAKE SURE YOU INVITE ME TO THE WEDDING
no excuse for myself if not doing this (:
I was so emotionally strong yesterday i mean super strong that i need to reward myself with something big like a wise and dashing husband perhaps?
And oh i should have marked it here that i did something very big on 13th May 2013. Alhamdulillah. Finally. (:
Its okay im not that very sad anymore
Whenever i say i wanna be a housewife everybody goes like throwing a big no on my face. i dont know whats wrong with that profession, i mean i take it seriously. regardless of whatever reactions that i got it still remains as my dream job and i know its not going to be easy. so i better hurry getting a job for some times to help me grow as a person and research-wise then i’ll just skip everything and move on to that dream of mine. dont know what the future holds for me but this is what i know to be true, at least for now. ultimately, everything is in His Hands and i’ll just follow His Plans. So no stress just go with the flow, my forever inner state of mind.
I suck at cooking cleaning doing chores and whatever home management related so thats a challenge and i love challenge though there’s high chance of me fail miserably at that. dont care.
The story of a convict.
Once upon a time, i was in a position where i felt so lost, so strange, so dark and it was like there’s no future ahead of me. So i asked God to give me hope, to gave me opportunities and i made a promise to be a really good person, to be that someone who could serve the family, the surrounding people and become an asset to this Deen.
My prayers were granted, many chances given, my path eased, and i’ve been given more and more. The only thing thats left is, im still not a good person, not even close, and most probably getting further away from my initial vow. I plead guilty.
If i was given more time i would still spending those times providing and honoring you, but my time is up, i need to carry on with this life. We both need to carry on. Until we meet again one day insha Allah
I dont need much i just need mutual understanding on certain issues like real goal in the relationship. Logistic issues like financial security and stuff are also important but i would put that aside as long as im so sure we could work things out together. I dont have to like everything about you, and likewise, y’know its impossible to like everything about your partner especially when they start to become so annoying right, but that doesnt mean we cant love each other with these defects. My point is i dont need much, just love and mutual understanding.
Sometimes i feel like we live for others. I mean like we put cute pictures of ourselves and our loved ones on instagram so people could see and compliment us, we create and upload some cool videos on the youtube for people to watch and give us some hits, we write stuffs on blogs for others to get impressed by our writing skills. Whenever we hear something new we cant wait to share it with others so that people would think its so profound and we would get the credit. How lame it is to live for others. Less time for ourselves definitely. Focus more on ourselves is a way to start doing it right.